I just realized that this blog is just sitting here and I feel a bit remiss. When I had A three and almost a half years ago my focus was him and only him. Factor a new business http://www.paperkitecreative.com, a very old (new to me) house and an adorable baby boy (H is now a year old!) and a husband with many hobbies, business endeavors and responsibilities of his own. Equals one life that is lovely but not quite deliberately-so as this blog would suggest.
Would he have been better off if I had been the Mom who wanted to just raise him and blog about our adventures? Instead he got a Mom whose focus is split. I love being his Mom and for a time that was all I wanted. I guess I wanted to design a lovely life, instead I designed a “busy” life. Did I sabotage our time with my ambition? Will I regret starting a business while my children were so young?
I guess actions speak louder then words. I had my children, I love them dearly and yet still something inside me wanted to build Paperkite and to have a professional life as well. I did create a faster pace for our lives, but I also set a tone that says we should go after out dreams, do what we are good at, work hard and not look back.
My wish is that someday when my children are off in the world discovering themselves, they won’t have to worry about dear old Mom. I will be out in the world too, doing what I love to do and cheering them on.
